I feel I am floating in infinity. Nothing makes sense anymore. I am in constant state of confusion. I see myself living in a cold large space with 20ft tall ceiling and enormously wide and tall window on one side. All the walls, floor and ceilings are painted in white. It is cold. I feel like a passenger. To where? I don’t know.

One day everything turned cold. I am in constant state of denial. As if I was living someone else’s life before and now I am back to my own life. It feels as if I was sleeping and dreaming everything was meaningful, everywhere was warm and everyone was nice. I am now awake. I don’t like what I see. Everything is floating in the infinity. People have cracked facades. Bridges are broken. Cities are empty.

I feel I betrayed time and this is my punishment. I am seeing myself. Who is this grown up?

Now it is time for me to change into my white suite, put on my sandals and walk towards sunrise. I need the warmth of that sunrise. I want to remember my dreams.

Isn’t that called hope? Isn’t hope the biggest lie we all tell ourselves?

If there is a god, she put us in this white wall maze. I can hear her laughing.

Love, romance, hope, charm, beauty, and destiny are all lies we invented and invested our life in. I want to remember my dreams. I want to sleep again and never wake up. My dreams were warmer. But it is so cold here that I cannot sleep anymore.

I am stuck in this infinity.